Gelatin

i found out today i have 20/10 vision

this is a good, great thing.

"better than 20/20", says the doctor

and i smile with pride, or so they call it.

then i cross my legs, and locate my hand to my chin

and wonder

how clearly, or, not so clearly, i have been seeing my whole life.

not the literal see

but the vision in which determines decisions

allows for remaining content when you should be eager

a sight that lets me interpret life correctly

or not-so-correctly

if i've got blinders on

or im in a pool full of gelatin.

what i'm really saying

mixed in with all this babble 

or gelatin

and 20/10

is that hindsight

is always clearer.

my hindsight is 20/10

but my now-in-the-moment

is 20/not-so-great.

in the moment we can assess

and think we're making the right decisions

and settling with the right choices

and understanding why we say the things we do

but when we step back

into the world of hindsight

vision becomes clearer

and we wonder 

"why on earth did i put up with that"

"why  would i have sat back and swallowed those words in that moment?"

"why didnt i..."

its because when you're in a pool of gelatin

the 'right-before-my-eye's-present-time' is foggy.

i know this now.

i'll focus on improving my vision in all 

tenses.