losing a good thing?

i painted today and feared that
quite possibly
i may be losing my painting ability?

i look around at all the painting studio kids
and marvel at the wide canvases
and wonder at how their colors make sense in such a chaotic order
when i, just seem to struggle with my
not so wide canvas
and my seemilingly appropriate to life, colors.

is it time to stretch
bend
grow uncomfortable
and be vulnurable

in a medium that i know im good at?

i feel ive hit a road block, and im puzzled with how to handle it.
i hate 'experimental'.
i hate 'going out of my comfort zone'

"but steph, it'd be good for you"
quite possibly...

right now, i need to figure out what the hell im doing
because i certainly
dont
feel like an artist.