needing a pause

this is one of those nights
when not even the
rapid rate of the cricket's rhythm
can keep up with my quickened mind.

replenished

Though i have felt so lonely in the heart department, recently

i am so in love

so in love with these little buggers

it refills my heart up every day

and for that, i am grateful

Sameness.

this summer has been so consistently inconsistent.

inconsistent with the times i arise from sleep every morning in disguise.

inconsistent with the number of meals im actually eating 

(compared to the consistent one coffee a day during the 24 hour span of last semester)

inconsistent with my dreams, desires, passions and wants for my future.

inconsistent with my feelings of homesickness or comfort of my reality

inconsistent with how i deal with my emotions, my voids, on a daily basis.

im consistently wishing for more proximity

im consistently questioning my own questions

and then consistently answering my own answers.

im consistently driving miles out of my way 

so i can have one constant thought for once in my life.

i consistently desire consistency in my life

yet i remind myself that i am not called to that predictable life

where constants rule

and the antithesis drool.

i wake up to the smell of coffee

to a call from a mom miles away

drive to a job where love pours out

and come home to a house that shows a consistent love too.

We aren't promised tomorrows.

personally, based on my calculations,

consistency is overrated.

Passion

I love being distracted by raw passion.


Hunting Bears - Heavy Tree from The Blind Club on Vimeo.

be mine

fact:

An Even Number, But I'll Deal

42 days.
Forty-two days until i  leave the country
with the only man on this earth that i can say
that i give my whole heart to.
my pappou.

the one who has protected me
through thick and thin
when no one else would.


so cheers to greece
cheers to a departure in 42 days
cheers to the unknown.
cheers to that.